Trapped. Yup. In myself. Scared that i'll never pass my A's at this rate. I seem to do alot but alot just isn't enough. Haiz, Lai Meng stress about Promos... Xiang dang nian... I also the same lo. Now worse still, the A's. Headache manx. And i'm still doing homework all the time la. Pile until so high, can't even touch my revision and TYS lo. I wonder how the seniors managed to score lo. Scared manx. Like the time after my O's prelims. 19 points can. Who would think of being able to get into NJ with such lousy results la. Now i can only pray that the exact same thing or a miracle would happen. If only i wasn't in year 2 now... If only... You know when sometimes, your parents don't scream at you and they say things like 'you can surely do it' or 'just try your best lor', it makes things worse. They obviously think you are the best in the world and thats so terribly wrong. Come on, face it. I'm the world's idiotic-est person with zero intelligence so much so that i still cannot understand why i'm here in the first place. Like WTH. I wasted all the money on piano lessons and all i could do was to fail my Grade 8. I suck at presentations like the stupid PW that all i could get was a C. I failed all my Econs tests and exams in JC that all i could hope now is an S. I'm like a failure la. Haiz, applaud my pathetic pea brain.