♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
Argghh!!! I'm trying to squeeze my brain out of my skull le. Currently writing a portfolio thingy to hand in to Mr Bek. Brain is deprived of any brain juice already. And out of nowhere, i smell Char siew... Nice smell... Haha. Need to be rather BHB here la. (interference: GuoHao doesn't know what's BHB. Somemore from cina sch de. Haiz) Portfolio leh. Supposed to write about your achievements and reflections and of course the stuff i did as an exco member. So dumb la. Its better if someone else writes for me can. I sound uber fake la. Haiz
Was mugging in the library after school today. Saw something but shan't tell you guys here. Lai Meng, you should know ba. You don't get too traumatised ah... Yup, anyway, was mugging there alone for like a thousand years when Ah Zhi messaged me and asked me to go down to the student lounge. Sometimes i'm really glad that there's a student lounge with a POOL TABLE!!! Wahaha. Shuang manx! So played with Ah Zhi and Franklin for a whopping 1 hour 30 mins. Ok, it wasn't free of charge la. Haha. Hey, i got talent in pool ok... This is the second time i officially played pool and it was somewhat a success la. Ok, lower your standards, people. Haha. Yep, so i wasted one and a half hour, not studying.But the good thing is that, I'm in the partially mugger mode now, which is a good thing of course. Heex.
Now my mind is rather in a mess, first due the 'heartbreaking scene', second due to the over mugging and ultra mugger environment in school and third, due to the super mixed emotions which now i can't even grasp any one to take out and describe. Haha. Happy, sad, depressed, excited, bored, fed up, all coiled into one. Haiz. negative negative plus positive postive gives you NEUTRAL! So perhaps i'm at this stage le.
Oh no, i'm starting to spout nonsense le.
I go attempt to watch my dearest bleach le. So farewell.... =)
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
Hmmm... San Ge waiting for San sao??? How romantic...
What's Sherm doing?
Orh... caught in the act with Cindy... Awww.... Scandalous... Captains ah...
Sherm acting cute!!!! OMGGGGGG!!!!!.... Haha...yup... better load the pics first, if not my laptop going to DC again...
Sianz...
Haiz... Life's now only about mugging and mugging and nothing else. Of course not to leave out the occasional entertainment from my juniors la. But seriously, it has become no life for the J2s le. Yesterday when i stepped into the hall, i felt lost. For the first time, i didn't feel that i should be here. No wonder Yiwen was having bad mood the day before. She went for the Chinese Dance hand over thingy and most probably have felt the same way as me or even worse since she isn't a part of the EXCo. Its great to be a part of the EXCo. BUt no matter what, there's still that nagging feeling that you are not supposed to be there anymore and now your only duty is to mug and mug and mug and try your very best to pass your A's. How irritating is that. Its not that i'm saying that you juniors don't care about the seniors anymore la (dont tell me you guys don't ar?) , but its a feeling that hmmm... if you are a human, especially someone who usually think too much like me and yiwen, this feeling will come sooner or later. Perhaps, some parts of it is due to the regrets of spending too little time with the team when we were stil training together. Somehow or rather, training does pull the team together. I miss trainings. BUt i know that now at this stage of my pathetic life, my main aim is to do well in my A's. And that's it. Nothing else. Everything else comes after that. Crap.
Ok, i admit that i'm old le... Haiz.
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
Waste time. Waste money. Waste brain cells trying to understand what the hell is going on in the damn movie.KNS!!! Just watched Harry Pot - Order of the Phoenix movie and is ultra pissed off now. Repeat : P.I.S.S.E.D... Is like WTH la. They have obviously cut the book by at least two-thirds so much so that those who have read it a long time ago are like a 'huh?' , those who just read the book or have superb memory are like a 'where's that part that they...' and those who have not yet read the book are like a 'waliao, i seriously gonna grab the book and start reading, coz i totally don't understand what the hell is happening down here'.Where's the 'wow' factor? And hello, the actors are all liars when they say that its the best movie yet. Doesn't even make me await the next movie with extra excitement la. Come on, perhaps i can direct the movie better than the current director can. (Ok, maybe i was exaggerating). But yes, it sucked. By a lot. Now, i do believe that the papers and reviews have truth in them sometimes.
Cho Chang and Harry's kiss scene
Awkward. (Did i spell it correctly?) They were like looking at Cedric Diggory's picture and talking talking talking and stuff.... And then they looked at each other and kissed. WTH. Totally no mood no feeling no nothing. And yes, in front of Cedric's photo. Not forgetting the mistletoe that started growing above them. Harry was like : Hey there's a mistletoe, and muacks. That's it. Just like that. Weird. Were they supposed to be like that? And where's that friend that stuck to Cho Chang wherever she went? And was it Cho Chang that told Dolores Umbridge about the Room of REquirements? I doubt so. Besides my friends telling me that, I do recall somehow that it should not have been that way.
Where's the action?
Ok, i admit that i'm an action freak. No action, no blood, no fighting? Not interested. I'm not your typical girl that goes for some sweet lovey dovey kind of movie. So where's my dose of adrenaline rush? The fighting scene at the end was a blur to me. I totally didn't catch what exactly was happening at the end. Everything happened too quickly. Flashes of light, Blurs of white and black (which until now, me and my friends are still unclear about who they were.) Fight what la? Impressed? Not one bit.Everything was a flash to me. Fragmented, i would say.
So here i am. Pissed off. Should have spent my money on other better entertainment like House of the Dead. Maybe it would have been more enjoyable shooting the heads off zombies myself. Should consider pursuing a career in the movie industry and try my hand at remaking the damn movie. ARGGH.
Ok, enough of complaining. Had CIP day today. We had to take care of the elderly. And the school was stupid enough to order pasta for them to eat. How many elderly would like to eat pasta? None. I mean, it's like they are not used to eating stuff that comes from the West la. Besides that, everything was very fine and yeah, i got to see my Taiyang in school today. Their class was slacking la. I thinm the people they were supposed to take care of wasn't here. Haha.Hmm.. He does spice things up in the mundane life in NJ though i have totally no idea what he is personally. Coz obviously, i don't know him. You know, eye candy and stuff. Hmm...
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
我不是一个很坚强的人
我不是一个只会笑的人
我不是你们所想象的那么有自信
So what do you suggest i do after just receiving, to the shock of my entire life, that my best subject in the past has become the worst? Ok, maybe not really the worst, but reaching that stage already. If i could, i would drown my GP teacher and myself in a sea of expletives. Grades are nothing without a pass in GP. Should start contemplating on how i should end my life right? We think alike manx.Hmm... So maybe jumping off the top floor of NJC and rolling down the super high hill would serve very well as a form of suicide eh? Ok, i need to do more research on that i suppose.
And i realised those who can go real 'high' (as in 'siao'), are usually the ones who go the lowest in bad times. Case study one : myself. Its scary sometimes how suddenly one can plunge so deeply in depression. Ok, i think that's called depression ba.Dun want to face that word but hmmm... maybe it does happen sometimes. In other words, i SUCK. Yup. Easy said as that. =(
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
OMG. i'm like so emo'ing until i don't feel like blogging. SO what am i doing here? What the hell.
Unloved.Pathetic. That's the two words that has like haunted me for the whole day. I'm sorry my friend.You would know what i'm talking about. I can't. I don't know what to say. Even i myself don't know what I'm thinking. Its the hardest when you have to try to understand even the simplest thought or emotion from yourself. Understanding others is chicken's feet manx, but when it comes to the feelings inside, that's a different story. OMG. I feel like a f**king idiot. I'm very sorry. Really. I can't handle this le. I don't know. With the stunning CTs results and stuff,argghhhh....
有时候，逃避不是最好的办法。但是我仍然选折了逃避。
有时候，明知自己会后悔，但还是犯了不能原谅自己的错误。
但是，这时候。。。我只能说声对不起。
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♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
2 km per day... Hmm... 10 km per week. Not bad since i stopped training. Haha. But my knee seems to get worse leh.. So sad. Squat down can't stand up. Haiz.
Big tortoise meet small tortoise. haha.
Lesson at SHATEC. I think its the most exciting and interesting enrichment week activity man. Definitely worth the 52 dollars. Anyway use edusave de what. Haha. If don't use, then 'bu huai' (Template from Peng Yi)
Lunch at SHATEC. Great man. BUt eat until we all very stiff. Coz don't know what's the corect way to use the utensils and all that.
Choc making! Haha. But totally not worth the 25 bucks la.
What is a marker without 'GHOST'???Lai Meng ah, How did you get the news de??? Oh my god. But obviously like all guys, he won't like someone older than him one what. Aiyoh this is so funny. Haha. Maybe i help stretch you and tan you la. Then u'll be tall and dark. Haha. And its very funny. I started laughing once i saw your tag la. Haha.
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
Aiyoh, i using my old comp and it doesn't seem to be working well. Haiz... But Never mind. i did save one copy of what i wanted to describe about that day at the steamboat in my other comp so maybe one day can put it up la. That comp doesn't seem to have any internet connection anymore so yup. i've to resort to the LKK comp (Lao Kok Kok) Haha. For details at the moment, refer to Lai Meng's blog ba. And i seriously think i'm going downhill again. Perhaps after like this week or so, you won't want to read my blog anymore. Get what i mean?
Think there's seriously something wrong with my perception of things right now. Is it me or is there really no link between me and my 'beloved' class? They went out that day and i didn't join them coz they were going to K box which i went the day before. And when Ah Wen told me bout the details, i didn't have any response except to maybe feign interest. Sorry guys, but i don't know why i was like that too. I would have at least the slightest hint of sadness or something like that when i missed out on outings and stuff.But this? No, not a single hint of such an emotion. Is there something wrong with me? Frankly speaking it's not that i've totally lost this feeling. I do get sad when i miss out on outings like those with my juniors and Ah Wen, Ah En, Ah JIa, Ah Zhi and Ah Zhu. So maybe... I don't know. I feel bad.I don't know what to do. Sobs.
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
