I don’t know if what I’m doing is right anymore. I didn’t know I had so many layers myself. Things just get more complicated. There are so many things that I want to do but I know I can’t, because of some reason or another. Why must there be a restriction called Time? I realised that all problems in the world boils to a single source – Time with its irreversibility. If there wasn’t the concept of Time, then we could do everything we wanted, since there was enough ‘space’ for us to have fun and try things one after another. But with Time, everything got restricted. You have to give up somethings in order to not waste time on others. You haven’t got all the time in the world to try things one after another. You are forced to make decisions, to forsake those options that your heart is in favour of and go with those that are logically sound to the mind instead. Logic over emotions. If I had more time, or there wasn’t even an issue of Time to start with, I would very very much like to dive into what we could have. But with time in place, I simply have to consider so so many other factors.

Somehow I don’t think what I’m doing now is right. But I don’t know what should or how it can be right either. It just seems to be the natural thing I would do anyways. Oh well, if someone could just tell me. Logic versus emotion. Practicality versus desire. Damn. I hope it’ll be ok. We’ve all been through so much together. I don’t want to look at our photos and see more invisible cracks appearing across it. I already have.

And that 8782.

After one week of staying at home or going out with my ma, I’ve enough of holidays already. If things are going to stay like that throughout, I really can’t wait to start school or special sem already. The only other person I see and interact with is my mother, which half of the time isn’t a pleasant one. We’re pretty bipolar at home, swinging from best friends to sworn enemies in war over the simplest things like unwashed cups. I’m bored, frustrated and pissed staying at home. And I have to force myself to go running/cycling/swimming everyday which I don’t need to when I’m out. Being out just gives me the energy to do every damn thing I want and can do. My house just saps the energy out of me, rendering me useless and glued to the comp screen with Naruto playing on episode after episode.

I can’t see the people I want to see. I can’t talk to the people I want to talk to. When there was still school, I could see them everyday or whenever I want, even those who ain’t in NUS since I had the freedom to meet anyone without reporting to anyone. Gosh, two weeks into holidays and I’m already missing people. And it’s not even as if I haven’t seen them for gathering and outings. Crap, I think I’m just addicted. What kind of addiction is that anyways! >.< Then again, this is probably the cooling off period for us to slowly face the fact that the past times are no more and that the brand new acad year doesn’t promise us the same amount of fun anymore. *emo*

As things heat up in the Singapore General Elections, mugging heats up for me as well. I know I’m supposed to be mugging like crazy for my last two papers, which are unfortunately the worst of all four, but the GE is much too distracting for me to sit still, mug and let nature take its course out there in the political field. I’ve watched almost all the videos on Youtube regarding the GE, heard almost all of the candidates speak and read at least 50 articles that netizens have put online illustrating their thoughts. Some are friends, some are extremists, some are pretty neutral yet they all wowed me with their thoughts and expressions. So despite the dark looming future of my eight modular credits, I shall pen down some of the questions that have obvious answers to them, and you do have the answers as well.

Lee used the word ‘repent’ yesterday, stating that voting the Opp in would allow the Aljunied residents to have 5 years to repent. Repent is a word used by higher beings. So has voting out the rulling party become a sin?

Media coverage. We’ve all seen that there’s almost 60% airtime for the ruling party, yet only a meagre 40% for all the other Opp parties put together. Is this fair? Is it because they have realised that there’re so few people attending their rallies that they should make use of their power over the media to advertise?

I thought ‘mentoring’ meant giving advice and guidance. Now why is the old man becoming the spokesperson instead? Hasn’t he already walked-over in his own GRC? Isn’t it time for the younger ones (some not exactly very young also la) to step up and show their competency and let the old man rest? People have criticised Old Chiam for running in the race despite his ill health and age. Why then can the Old Lee go on? They both are the faces of their parties, but now shouldn’t we be voting for their younger counterparts instead of harping on the old? They’re the ones we recognise, so they need to be there to show and introduce us their younger ones. So people, think about the future.

Ok wait, I need to lunch and mug now. I can continue on this forever. Will be back soon. In the meantime, stay tuned to insing.com for live streaming of rallies.