Its alright, really.

Sunday, June 16, 2013 9:55 PM

Got inspired to do a bucket list of my own after reading a friend's post. Let me see...

1. Kayaking in the Norwegian Fjords
2. Strolling down the Grand Canal in Venice
3. Visiting the Louvre Museum
4. Photoshoot at the Eiffel
5. Playing in the fields of green in Matamata (Hobbiton)
6. Dress up in Harajuku
7. Making snow angels in Hokkaido
8. Disney-ing in Florida
9. Watching the Northern Lights in Finland
10. Flying in a chopper across the Grand Canyon
11. Eating seafood in Sydney
12. Building sand castles in Redang
13. Watching Broadway in New York
14. Lying on the green fields in Switzerland
15. Yelling into the Niagara Falls
16. Snorkeling in Maldives
17. Watching the sunset/sunrise at Stonehenge
18. Sunbathing on Bora-bora Island
19. Photographing The Vatican in Rome
20. Trekking through Yellowstone National Park
21. Picnic-ing at the Versailles Castle
22. Viewing the Neuschwanstein Castle in Germany
23. Visiting the Reims Cathedral in France
24. Road trip to the Uluru Ayers Rock in Aussie
25. Strolling down the streets in Prague
26. Driving through the Golden Gate Bridge
27. Visiting the Smithsonian
30. Lunch-ing at Oia, Greece

The world is so big, I'm just so insignificant. There's so much to see and do before I die. And I want to share all that I see, hear, experience with the others as well. So take my hand and let's go see the world!

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Thursday, June 13, 2013 11:20 PM

Was just recalling the days I spent in sports club, knowing all the awesome people and having the time of my life. Words can never adequately express how much I love being with them then, like we were one big family. And since I was one of the only two regular girls around, it was natural that I had a lot of bros that showered us with care and protection. It was special for me, given that I was a single child at home. Action spoke louder than words, caring words never came from them but you could tell from the little actions they did.

But like all committees and family, things happen. Like how they always say, the only constant in life is change. People change, situations change, lives are changed. And now while I sit here waiting for my hair to dry, let me fulfill my sudden urge to write about these brothers that used to be the joy of my life, now some still remain while others fade into oblivion. In fact, they can be categorized.

1. The I'll-always-be-there-for-you Bro

Best people of the lot, of course. Some weren't very close to me in the past or even now, but I know that I can count on them when I needed help. And it would be easy on my part to ask since there were never conflicts along the way. These are probably the ones I would ever call if my life is in danger. Attached or not, it doesn't make a difference. Because, that's what true bros are for.

2. The Heartless Bro

We used to be able to share about everything under the sun. I used to help them think of ways to impress the girls they were after. Used to set up situations that helped them get their girls. But everything ended when they got attached. We stopped talking, stopped contacting each other, stopped meeting out for meals. Even when we could meet in groups. Time passed and we didn't know what to say to each other during gatherings anymore. Till now, I still lament the loss of such friendship.

3. The Tell-you-how-many-times-already-we-can't-be-together Bro

If I call you my bro, of course I wouldn't have ever thought of the possibility of developing our relationship into a romantic one and neither would I be considering. It's not that they ain't good guys, it just that I know them too well. It's like dating your real brother. Im vert sorry ive friendzoned you, but i have a choice don't I? Over the years, I've learnt that it's hard for others to treat you as just a friend after such incidences. It's the way of losing friends that I hate the most. No one can be blamed in such cases. It was never your fault to like, neither can it be my fault to have never seen you in a different light. Such a pity.

4. ...

There's one last type of bro, it's hard to describe them and my eyelids are closing shop right now. So perhaps ill leave this for some other time.

To all my dear bros, thank you for the times you stood by me. Whether it was just in the past, recently, or will still do so in the future. Thank you.

Yours faithfully

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Tuesday, June 11, 2013 12:14 AM

I don't feel, I think. I've had friends who say this to me, why think so much? Just do what you feel like doing. I admit, I've hardly ever done anything out of emotional whim. Even when it comes to relationships. I've seen too many broken souls created from emotional roller coaster rides, killed too many cardiac cells myself. Probably more so that I've to stay rational, amidst my crazily emotional friends.

Sometimes too rational for my own good. Especially when it comes to loving others, or wanting something. I could probably teach a whole module on 'how to rationalize your situation' and I bet all my friends would sign up for it.

Maybe there isn't the trigger for me to see the need to listen to my heart fully yet. Maybe the time will come soon. I'm kinda curious what I can do, what I will do.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road