Perhaps I should blog a little before I attempt to mug. (emphasis on attempt). Can’t really mug actually. I’ve got lack of sleep. Maybe that explains why I keep having the fainting feeling. Haha. Seems like I really slacked a lot these days compared to the days before mid terms. Reached home around 1030 after eating dinner with WY yesterday. He was late luh. Waliao. The next dinner’s on you okays. >.< so I was 3 hours deprived of sleep already since I had 8am lecture the next day. and yeah I crashed ionto a glass panel yesterday too. At Central Library. Ok I admit I was stupid lar… Spotted my friend outside the library and attempted to walk into the library while with my head facing the back and staring at them. (sounds weird, like I was doing some contortions. Ha.) and then wah la. I realized I’ve crashed into the glass panel. Tell me, how many people were around at CENTRAL LIBRARY at around 4 plus? Please, it’s got to be called CENTRAL for a reason. Where people of all faculties converge in a library. So yeah. Oh manx. How throw face la….

Was zhi-bi-ing in the library after CM1101 tutorial today. Until… yuan jie said that he was on the way to meet me! Wahahaha. I need to confess something AGAIN. I was SUPPOSED to do finish my lab report and start on my statistics. But wells, Holland V was super inviting and anyways… its his birthday whats. Its damn sad luh. No one was celebrating his birthday for him. Apparently everyone was busy. (I was, SUPPOSEDLY)
And in the end, we went to NUS for erm… free school tour by Yeo Ah Mui after lunch. Yeah yeah, its his ‘damn exciting, damn cool, damn vibrant’ FUTURE university. *rolls eyes* haha. You should have seen his face luh. Like never stepped into a university before can. And I caught him erm… smiling to himself la. Apparently he was taking more notice of the people in the NUS community, and yeah paying MORE attention to some. =P You get the point. Hahaha. And the main thing is… I PONNED SP1201 AGAIN. Even I can’t stand myself. >.<

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

i hadn't had any SMS in TWO FULL DAYS. i'm so sad. >.<

P.S
Just wondering, have you left for taiwan already?

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Me and Zhi went to Queensway to eat sambal stingray just now! And we ate this amount of food (note to readers : there was ONLY the TWO of us)
1. 4 BIG cups of sugar cane juice
2. Sambal stingray
3. Sambal La La (some clam like thingy)
4. Sambal ‘chu-chu’ (some erm… snail like thingy which apparently is Zhi’s fave)
5. Damn good fried rice.
Stun? Haha. And our dear ah Zhi wanted Tiger beer. I think I can die if I still went on drinking beer luh. And we came out with the horribly retarded phrase ‘la1 la4 la3 la1’ (ok,in Chinese, it means we’ll erm… LS the spicy Lala.) I think the original name Lala is already super lame can. Haha. And the ‘chu-chu’ is even worse. Like omg luh.. who calls sth a chu-chu? WAHAHAHAHA. Oops paiseh I’m rather high now can. Haha. We got drunk on sugar cane juice. (sugar rush i guess). we were so full with air (we had to suck the thingy from the shell. yeah we're SUCKERS. =P) that we had to stand up to suck. like WTH luh.


P.S
In The Dark Knight, Harvey was knocked down by a car tt’s why he’s called Harvey Dent. This is exclusively Ah Mui’s masterpiece. =P

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

I'm tired of guessing. its always like that. >.< and perhaps it would yet be ANOTHER time that i think too much. Craps.

I give up.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Me and Pris - camwhoring in JE lib's toilet. =P

Me and my dear Ah Wen Wen

Ok you can decide to ignore this.

Joson. i'm not a stalker. i just hand itchy =P

The other pics wll be uploaded onto Facebook.

Yeah, went back to NJ AGAIN. Ok, this time wasn’t really just to say hi or to change bus. Was there to sincerely view and support dear Honghu’s graduating arts exhibition. Its really good to be back. Met Ah Wen and Joson at a corner of the canteen. We were SUPPOSED to be mugging okays, they A’s and me end of sems. But you guessed it right. We ended up crapping like crazy. Was crapping at first and then… we started emo talk. I don’t know why but it just seems that I’ve no prob opening up to juniors and Wen. Perhaps they feel less threatening I guess. They’re totally like brothers to me luh. (I love you guys manx! Haha. *hair stands*). Crapped until Mr Joson Chua didn’t feel like studying anymore, we went to meet Zhi. Too bad Mr Song Minghan couldn’t come down to join us for dinner. If not Mr Joson Chua and Ms Tan Ah Wen is going to have an entertaining night AGAIN. And I’m also very sad that I can’t meet the rest of my juniors. Oh wells.

Anyways I was very fascinated by my junior’s artwork. Can’t imagine how their minds actually work and process their art piece luh. Its like damn amazing can. Haha. You guys did a great job. =P

Its always super nice and warm when you’re back and then when you finally realize you need to leave again, wham, the feeling of emptiness just comes back again and I need 2 – 3 days to recuperate from another round of emo-ing shit. Damn it. Life’s so boring now that everyone’s in uni and army. And to think of it, it won’t be long before my ‘brothers’ go into army too. Gosh, then I won’t have anyone that is super ultra retarded to crap with anymore. (and I really mean super ultra retarded.) Can’t seem to crap that much in uni. People’ll just think you’re either stupid or acting dumb.

Before I go and sleep, I’d like to thank Honghu for inviting me to his exhibition and for the words he said. I’m so touched luh. Sobs.

It’s the end of a happy day. How saddening. Nights everybody. >.<

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

I guess its just me. Stupid dumb and retarded. SDR. Haha. Oh wells.

Rain + looong bus journey + no one around = best time to think of the depressing past, the hopeless present and the dim dark future.

Ah and now I’m playing Astropop AGAIN. See, I’m just a waste of resources.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Wanted to go home early to sleep today. Left NUS at about 3 30pm. My eyes couldn’t open anymore. And guess what? I ended up in NJC at like 4. its super long since I went back already. I always had the urge but never really going in. coz most of the times, there just wasn’t anyone in school that I know. Even if there was, I shouldn’t be ka-jiao-ing them in the first place. So yeah, I knew I’ve left school and I’m not in grey anymore.

But yes, I did go in today. Coz I was just messaging Ah Wen and she told me she was in school! Its like freaking long since I last met her. It just felt good to see her again. Yup and I met my 2 other juniors. Joson and ULTRA CRAP Song Minghan. OMG luh. You should have seen Joson’s face and Ah Wen’s face manx. They were like super fascinated with me and Song Minghan luh. (I dunno why, but I seem to have the habit of calling his full name. To emphasize his spasticness perhaps.) and erm… this sounds stupid but we’re setting up the MH Entertainment Co. (who’s dumb idea was it?) haha. Coz apparently Song Minghan is SMH (Singapore Mental Hospital / Sucky Mother Hen) and I’m YMH (luckily not IMH). And we obviously provide ENTERTAINMENT round the clock. Hey Song Minghan, if you’re reading this, please help me collect the viewing fees from our consumers. Haha. I charge 50 bucks per hour okays. For high quality high definition entertainment. (oh man, can’t believe I just wrote that.)And we figured out that Joson should have went to ACJC. Why? Act Cute Joson Chua mah. how lame. Saw Justin, Sherrie and Jason today too. Today's such a happy day. But now i'm lacking sleep. the opportunity cost.

And so we talked until 6 plus. There goes my sleep. Haha. Anyways now damn excited about going back again on Friday. Will be attending Honghu’s art exhibition.

You know sometimes I’m really really glad that I came to know so many of the juniors. Its not like all of them were my direct juniors. But whenever I go back to NJ, I never feel like I’m an outsider. I always have someone to talk to, to crap. I love that feeling. I dare say that I know more of the J2s now than the people of my cohort. Wonders what it would be like if I was just born in 1990 instead. Haha. But oh wells, the guys are going into army next year. So I’ll have less people to crap with again. =X


To Lai Meng, please don’t so unglam le can? Haha. Dun ask me why. Ask SMH, he’ll know why I said that. =P
To Song Minghan, fellow MH, please dun be so zhi lian can. n i really going to get nightmare coz of ur that expression today luh! =X
To my dear Tan Ah Wen, must study hard wor? then can get 4 Apples. Don't want Umbrellas okays? according to Singapore Mental hospital, Apples are As luh >.<)
And lastly to all my juniors, ALL THE BEST FOR YOU’RE A’S AND GAMBATTE! 19 DAYS MORE TO START OF A’S. JIAYOU!

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

I chopped off my hair! It looks damn nice now. But thing is I don’t think I dare spike it so much in public leh. It’s like so paiseh can. Haha. Feels damn good cutting hair. It’s a form of relaxation I think. Or at least until the next day when it finally sinks in that you’ve lost quite a bit of hair. Yeah, I’m like starting to miss my ponytail already. But wells, it’s another new beginning. =)

Was talking about curses today with the rest of them. Realized that we’re really getting old. When we were 14, we thought, aiyah its still early, we’re not yet 16 anyways. When we are 16, we think, we’re not yet 18 so it’s still ok. Now that we’re like going to be 20 soon (and its damn soon for me, I don’t want this year to just end like that), it finally hits us that we are really getting rather old eh. The 2/1 curse. Someone has to break it. We’re like abstract art. Waiting patiently for someone to be able to appreciate the very essence of an abstract art. But one day, we’ll lose our patience. I hope that day would never need to come. Get the idea? No? well its ok, its abstract anyways. It just needs simply that one person to understand and appreciate. >.<

Shoganai.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Disastrous week I should say. Everything’s squeezed into one week. CM1111 test (screwed), SSA2204 presentation (screwed), SP1202 (screwed even more, coz apparently I didn’t know I was scheduled to present on that day), CM1101 lab report (heck-ed). Ah and now I just lost my internet connection. What a ‘great’ week manx. Now I finally understand what’s the meaning of stress. And I wonder why, besides all this stressful stuff, I still can think about other redundant stuff and doubts that can never be answered by myself. Everything’s neither here nor there. I would love if you could give me some answers.

I’m going to cut my hair tomorrow. Well, wish me luck. And hope that along with it, I’ll say sayonara to the stuffs that have been bugging me the whole week and the crap and all that shit. Really, perhaps it would be better to be a retard, or even a spastic. Then life wouldn’t be so mentally agonising with all the troubles and doubts. Oh wells. And why is it that the blame’s always on me?

Tatsukete kudasai. Dou shitara ii ka wakaranai.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Part two of infinite-part Chronicles of The Never-ending Siege – The War Rages On.

The last was the rice in the rice pot. Yesterday was the ‘raining also my fault’. Seriously I respect my ma’s ability in finding reasons to fault me.
Ok, I reached home at 11:45:07 (ok this is exaggerating, I didn’t really care what the time was, it was around there). It was pouring the moment to stepped out of the MRT. Ok, I’m done for. Left my umbrella at home coz (how dumb I am) my dad says it won’t rain yesterday. He’s the lousiest weatherman sia. And so I cheonged home la. Ah that’s when the actual drama starts.
Stepped into my house and my ma started screaming at me. Expected.

She : Wah lao, what time liao huh? No government liao issit? I one time let you come back so late you now everyday come back so late?

Me (in my head) : I got everyday come back so late meh? Think she must be dreaming luh. Since she like everyday fall asleep at 8.

She : next time you don’t go watch movie at night ah. If want watch at night, watch with me luh.

Me : WTH. Watch with you can, watch with people cannot sia? And is watch movie only whats. I go mindscafe until damn late you also never say anything. Somemore ask me fun not.

She : that one different. That one is gathering. So go nevermind. This one is watch movie. You watch movie can afternoon watch why must watch at night? The whole day what you think you doing? Afternoon so long cannot go and watch issit?

Me : wah got difference huh? Ok lo, so I went for gathering tonight luh. Then if gathering watch movie how? And I afternoon got school la. You think I everyday damn free one issit?

She : ah if gathering watch movie then different. That one can. Alamak, you not free meh? My friend say uni very free one. You better study I tell you first.

Me : that one also different? Then how you expect me to know which one can which one cannot? And hello, I got study ones lo. How about we swap manx?

She : eh, you retarded or what? I must tell you which one can which one cannot ah? And how come raining you never carry umbrella? You want die issit? And how come you everytime never bring umbrella only will rain one?

Me : WTH. Now raining also my fault.

She : ya, raining is your fault. Now my clothes tomorrow cannot dry luh. Its all your faults ok. And then now you go out then you never go running? You wan get sick ah? I see you so long never go run. Later you get sick then you know.

Me : I got go run okays. I that day Monday run 4km liao.

She : you got go run meh? Ok so now no government liao luh? Go out running also dunno how to tell me issit? You think you can just go out like that issit? And then you got eat lunch today or not huh? Wait later you get anorexic I tell you first. You think don’t eat very nice issit? Blah blah blah …..

I give up already. ALL ELSE HAS FAILED.
Tell me, why is it MY fault that her clothes can’t dry? How come she can link raining to running to going out without letting her know to getting anorexic and etc? How is it that she thinks I’m getting anorexic? Like hello la, which part of me tells you I’ll give up on food for anything else?

Guess why I can type this entire conversation (more like an argument) out in full? Coz this isn’t the first time I’ve had this conversation. I had it like a million times before in the exact same content, exact same detail, and sometimes even in the exact same order. I super respect my ma’s nagging power. She my most respected person manx.Wonder if I’ll become like that in the future. Hope not. =P

Anyways, yesterday (before coming home) was fun manx. Thanks guys. =)

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road