THE STARING INCIDENT

Happened yesterday when I was on my way home from extreme mugging. Totally brain dead from the intense maths processing in the day. Got on a very empty train. One stop only so it wasn’t a very great relief. Time : 9pm. Was so brain dead the only thing I could do was to stone. And stoning equals staring at blank spaces around you, isn’t it? And usually it’s straight ahead. And horrors of horror. There was a couple opposite me erm… frenching away I supposed. Kinda look like they’re eating each other up. Hah. And so I couldn’t possibly stare straight ahead. So I stared to my left and stare into the ferocious eyes for some punk. WTH. I didn’t want to die before I took my maths luh. At least even if I do fail or do badly, I have created work for the lecturers i.e. to mark my papers and I won’t waste my super expensive uni fees. =P then I stared to my right, but the prob was… I had severe neck ache these days due to excessive mugging and watching anime secretly. (NOT HENTAI OKAYS.) so I couldn’t really turn my head. And staring at the ground was seriously boring. How pek chek that was. All I wanted to do was to stone luh. Haiz.

Oh and shopping alone was great. Stress free, no obligations. Yay, something that I can do alone. Hee. Ah back to maths.


~when it ends don’t be sad, coz it’s sadder for the others who never had the chance to experience~

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

CHEMISTS, ONE LAST PAPER AND WE’RE DONE FOR SEM ONE. BRING IT ON MANX!

I’m like so freaking excited i think if I jump now, I would have gone over the moon (and maybe even said hi to Armstrong’s flag). I can’t even bring myself to mug for the last paper. Seriously that’s the problem with me. I can’t focus when I see ppl around me going out to enjoy and stuff. Argh. Kill me now okays. Maths. The last paper. My strongest and my weakest. Why so? Strongest as in understanding and grasping the theory. Weakest? More often that not it’s the one that I’m too confident with and end up overlooking the most simple difficulty (unravel the irony yourself). So please would someone slap me awake? Therefore I conclude that I have to force myself to get out of the house, away form the laptop, away from the TV and away from my diamond and go out there and let the reality of ‘other people mugging while you’re there slacking’ sink in. Maybe that’ll help.

So back to what I’m going to do after exams. =P
1. go running. really running. I so need to burn my fats.
2. shopping. I need/want : a pair of pumps, many many shorts to last me for the next sems, a big everything-also-can-throw-in bag, Macbook Air, Sigg bottle, pouch for my diamond, wallet, etc…
3. East Coast cycling!!! I wanna see the planes! (its your fault I’m addicted, and you know who you are >.<)
4. Sentosa. I need the sun.
5. get more applications for my Diamond
6. watch finish Soul Eater
7. steamboat
8. shokudo with Eu
9. changi airport
10. swim
and more. CAN’T WAIT.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

YEAR 1 SEMESTER 1 CONCLUSION

Anyways, I guess I should blog today since it’s the LAST day of Year 1 Semester 1. Ok, I admit its ‘self-declared’ last day of school. Since there’s a lecture I’m ponning tomorrow. Oh man, I ‘dui bu qi’ Prof Bettens. Haha. Its okays, I’ll ‘attempt’ to mug extra hard for CM1101 and risk failing CM1111 then. Sem 1’s over so damn soon. Kind of expected. Since JC life was also over so super fast leaving me like ultra sad. Haha. Looking back at this past sem, I realized that a lot of things have changed since after the A levels. People we meet, things we do, places we used to go, all have changed. Life’s so different now. So much more mellow, more jaded.

But at the same time, made a great many friends too. (now who says I don’t have friends?) haha. The Hope church people, who really made transition from JC to uni much smoother. At least I knew them before I really stepped into uni. My SOW OG, who brought me fun, laughter, peace and joy and company for the ever boring but mentally overloading tutorials. The 3 of fellow chemists (erm, I don’t know how to classify you guys. Clique?), who accepted me (willingly or unwilling?? Haha) and tolerated my nonsense, besides adding on to the retardedness. =P My dearest sec sch girls, who no matter what still stood by me and at times saved me from the misery of eating lunch alone. Hee. My JC erm… friends/sisters/clique/i-don’t-know-what-to-call-you-guys-too, who though are spread out all over the place, (mostly in NTU >.<) still come and have fun together and crash my school. (I’ll crash NTU next sem, I promise). Oh and people whom I knew from ActsCalibre who are not from Hope. Yeah. But come to think of it, most of my friends from JC are either in NTU (80% of NJC ’07 grads have infiltrated NTU NBS) or army. Gosh. I’ll be like in year 3 by the time the guys come out to join us. And it’ll take even longer for the junior guys. Alamak, no one to crap with liao. Seriously I suspect that I have a crapping frequency of a 17 year old instead of what I should be. Oh man.

This is probably going to be an ultra long entry coz I still need to complain about today’s traffic and stuff. I do urge the super rich in Singapore to get private jets or choppers to ease the traffic congestion at peak hours. Its really bad. I ended class at 6 today, hoping to get home latest by 7 30. I reached central library to change to bus 151 after thinking that I could refill my bottle at the central library. And guess what? the whole water dispenser was MISSING. Was it my hallucination that it was there in the first place? >.< then it started pouring. And man, it felt damn great to be walking under the rain alone, getting your toes wet (not muddy). I’m serious. Its one of the rare times I like to be left alone. And then I waited. And waited. And waited. At long last did the 151 arrived. And then…. It took 10 mins just to get from one bus stop to the next. Reached NJ at 7 30pm. Super ultra uber hungry. Felt like fainting. 156 came in about 10 minutes. Took 15 minutes for the bus to reach every next stop. Hungry. Felt like puking HCl (gastric acid for thos who don’t know). By the time it reached Bishan, the front of my stomach has firmly stuck to the back. >.< I reached home at 8 45pm. WTH.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

SSA2204 test over le! Ten thousand years old! (direct translation – Wan4 shui4). The test was rather manageable. Val is happy. Haha.

Anyways, Val wants to thank Xiying for coming to her rescue by eating lunch with her at Technoedge today. You rock manx. Muacks. Think that eating meals alone is the most horrible and pathetic thing someone can do. You know, when I see people eating lunches or dinners alone, I got the sudden urge to join them at their table. Food doesn’t seem to have taste when you eat alone. Anyways, forget about the part why I was alone.

Oh, and I realized I’m really going into my own world nowadays. People complain that I ignore them when they wave/call me. And guess what? today outside Engin Audi, jonathan was sitting just the next table to me and staring me as I walked past twice and then sat down at the table next to his without noticing his presence luh. Sorry manx, but I think it’s the hair problem. Whoops. Don’t tell him that. (like he doesn’t know, my blog is public. LOL) Hee. =P

And I made a new friend today. She’s called the ‘wooden table’. Yeah you guessed it. It IS the wooden table. Oh she told me how heavy I was. (thanks ah). And that she had legs but can’t run. (I think she’s the fatter one I guess). Ok, stop it already. I was crapping. And no I didn’t talk to the table. I was bored and alone but not THAT bored and alone. Haha.

I’m my own murderer. Oh wells, it always happens when you leave me by myself. I guess I’m too reliant on people. People People. Ah wells. Once upon a time in school, you could find people that you know all over the school. In short, you almost knew everyone in school. You could just sit anywhere and start yakking. There were the people from the same batch, and yeah there were juniors. It was the time when you worried that hanging around in school longer would result in slacking coz there were too many things to talk about and countless number of possible people you could talk to. Perhaps I was too accustomed to that sort of life. Now, here, even in science fac, where I supposedly ‘belong’. There’s no table that I could just sit down and start crapping with the people and stuff. Silence filled most of the day. and seriously I DUN LIKE silence. (those who know me can tell i guess. Actually no need guess also know. Ha) I need somewhere and some people to go crazy at and with. So yup, if you fit the following : Crazy, Siao or Insane, please come and talk to me okays? =P Arigato gozaimasu.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road