Wednesday, February 13, 2013 4:05 PM
I’m pretty amazed how I can become so invisible to my
dearest friends. I’m really not sure if I talk too much, am too annoying or am
just too extra at the wrong times. Why is that I can say something and get
ignored by all in group chats while someone else can start a brand new topic
and the rest replies to that. I don’t think I’m thin enough to vanish into thin
air just yet. Sometimes I wonder why even after all the effort put into our
friendships, they just don’t seem to treasure it as much as me? Excuses after
excuses for not turning up at gatherings. So what exactly am I to you? Spare
tyre?
Friendship is one thing. Then comes others more than
friendship. Tell me how many ambiguous incidents must I have for me to finally
be able to see some ‘ray of light’? I’m tired of guessing here and there and
everywhere, never knowing what it meant to you, or if there was even ever once
time you thought ‘maybe we can work something out too’.
And yes, Vday’s coming again. Awesome.
~Written 8 Feb 2013
♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road