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Monday, February 20, 2012 5:38 PM

Burning out.

No more mood to meet friends, no mood to do anything besides sitting at home to watch tv, play piano, rot to death. What's worse, my comp crashed. Of all times.

I'm so grateful that I still have my iPad. At least a bigger window to the virtual world than just my iPhone screen.

Things just can't get any worse I guess. Ok choi choi.

Guess FYPis just there to make us wanna graduate sooner. I never had such strong urge to graduate before. Life was all so much fun then. Now I live with me, myself and I. Not forgetting my journals and incomprehensible data.

My utmost gratitude to people who walked into my life this year while others left a blazing trail. Guess without them, life would suck even more. People are what keeps me going. And of coz besides those who walked into my life just recently, I am super thankful for those who have been there for me through out this trying year. It hasn't even come to an end and I'm already talking about such stuff. ><

Guess its when times like this comes that one really understands what it means to cherish.

Love much.

Walking on,
my own dusty road

Tuesday, February 07, 2012 12:22 AM


Watching Bu Bu Jing Xin made me cry till my eyes fell out. Ok, exaggerated a lil. But I now know that I cannot watch that show on the train/bus/before I go to school/go to town/go out. I’ll look as if I’ve just broken up.

Parallel to the show, I somehow find that I’ve had my ‘Eight’, ‘Tenth’, ‘Fourth’ and ‘Thirteenth’. I’m now only left to wait for the arrival of a ‘Fourteenth’.


Walking on,
my own dusty road

Thursday, February 02, 2012 12:39 AM


Haven’t been blogging for quite a while already. I bet there probably isn’t any who is still reading this blog, checking it every now and then, only to find that the owner hasn’t updated yet again. I have had the urge to blog here and there, but there are always things around that are more exciting/worth doing/time-consuming/important/fun to do.

Have been occupied with FYP lately, coming home to watch ‘Bu Bu Jing Xin’ each night is almost my only form of entertainment. Haven’t been talking much to anyone either. There isn’t much people in the lab anyways and if there are, they aren’t fun to talk to. On top of that, I realized I really don’t like to talk much when I’m doing work. My mind needs the utmost concentration. I can’t multi-task and if I do try, I end up putting my verbal mind on autopilot and saying nonsense stuff. So I definitely appreciate much the occasional HTHT/gossip/chit-chat sessions that I have with my beloved friends.

Talking about friends, I’ve come to understand that they are by far the most precious things on Earth. (Ok, beside parents that is.) Pardon me on this if you do not agree, but I firmly believe that friends are more valuable than siblings. You may say that I’ve never had the chance to really understand what it means to have siblings, but I’ve seen my fair share of the downside of having them around. I have never, and I really mean NEVER, wanted any siblings of my own. Yes, even when I was young. I’m not selfish, it’s not like I don’t want to share the things that I have. I love giving to others, it’s way easier for me to buy things for others than to shop for myself. So why then, do I never wanted siblings?

Friends are of choice. Siblings are not. That’s what I have always thought. I have the right to choose who I want to hang out with, who I want to share my deepest secrets with, to help and be helped. You can choose your friends, be as close as you can be, share everything. But you can’t choose who your siblings are, what personalities they have, what type of person they will be. If you get a sibling that fits your own personality, that’s a bonus. If you don’t, they only exist to tie you down. A blood bond that is said to not be broken, that blood is thicker than water. Something that you try to flick away but will never leave.

I’ve heard stories of how well siblings get along with each other when young only to turn into mortal enemies as they age. Now that I’ve seen such drama for myself in my own family, I cannot help but be silently glad about the fact that I’m the only child. Since young I never had any thought that I could one day rely on my relatives for help or company in the future, may it be that I’ve gone bankrupt, met an accident or never got married. Now I’m also glad I was brought up thinking in such a way.

I’ve given up on my relatives. If they can’t even help their own mother, why would they even bother to help me?

I painted a picture of a bleak future for myself. I fairly well know that parents can’t be with me for the rest of my life even if I hope/pray/beg for it. Friends, I guess, will leave my side one by one to start their next phase of life. Hopefully with the exception of some. And maybe or maybe not it’s too early to say, I don’t seem to have much luck in the affairs of the heart (Oh no, valentine’s coming). So till now, I can only see a future of I, me and myself. Gotta live with it. May God grant me the strength.

Back to webcasts.


Walking on,
my own dusty road

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. NUSSSC 31st Mgmt Comm
. NUSSSC RunNUS 2010
. NUSSSC RunNUS 09
. National University of Singapore B.Sc(Hons) Chemistry
. National Junior College 06S22
. NJ Badminton, ExCo '06 - '07
. Innova Junior college 0623A (1st intake)
. Anderson Secondary 1/1, 2/1, 3/3, 4/3
. ANDSS Badminton
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