Last week of Year 3 Semester 2. Life’s been too happening for my weak heart and overloaded brain this week.

People all around me are graduating, taking photos here and there. It didn’t sink in that I probably won’t be seeing them anymore after this day (besides on the exam dates, which I think I’ll be more focused on freaking out than paying attention to their presence). I ought to graduate too, just that I can’t get enough of school life. I just don’t want to go out into the corporate world. I wanna study forever. It’s scary out there you know, politics and all. I’m a person that is pretty much affected by others (call it the open economy), and I wonder if I can take it when I finally do step out there. Conflicted as I am, working is not just ah-go-to-work-do-work-eat-lunch-do-work-go-home. Like most of my close friends, I have wild ambitions (credit it to good peer pressure). So on one hand, I would like so much to climb climb climb the corporate ladder. Yet on another, I’m afraid of those crazy politic wars around which I’m so noob at. I like having stress, it drives me. So weirded.

Seeing them leaving school makes me think about my bleak life in school next year. FYP, no sports club, and my clique is taking off on their own runway. That’s scary isn’t it? I’ve to take modules alone, and oh no! EAT LUNCH ALONE! LOL.

And then there was another thing that i guess and hope should be over by now. Suddenly, it’s probably better like the usual. No more, no less. =]

Back to mugging. OMG exams in 6 days!

Presentation’s over, one project due next Friday, VIVA this thurs, lab exam on Sat and thermody test next Wednesday. Ky’s chasing me for the reno proposal as well. Goodness me, I seem to have overflowing work to do. This semester’s crazily mad for me, with horribly hard modules like quantum and interfaces. Wonders how would next year be like. Insane it may be, but I’m thinking I’m pretty quite comfortable with this amount of stress and work since it gives me the drive to keep working. I realised once I slack off a lil, I need a hell lot of self-motivation and determination to get back on track again. And I rather not let it go that way, like it did after my gruelling three-week-long midterms. Have been drowning myself in work and running / swimming so that I would be too tired to even allow my mind to wander to who-knows-where. I know it will, especially at times like this when I’m stuck at crossroads again and my mind has a strong yearning for things apart from studies. Seems like it’s work super successfully. I’ve suppressed the stuff that’s bugging me right to the very back of my mind. It’ll be over in 5 weeks and by then, I will have all the time in the world to think and probably emo over all those stupid things all over again. LOL.

I'm so tired, sometimes I don't feel like talking at all.