I found the top picture first. But then I refused to believe it. So I found the second picture. If not the second one wasn't THAT pink. >.<Besides the increased frequency is whacking my head, poking my arm or attempting to kick me when I do lame stuff, it’s funny that some are being nicer to me nowadays compared to in the past. Is it their new year resolution? It’s super great this way, but kinda not very used to it yet. Not that I prefer being suaned like crazy, just that it’s different lo. And different takes a while to get used to. Hope it lasts long enough for me to get used to before something reverts it back to the old state.
V day’s approaching with the onset of CNY. Have been hearing and seeing alot of my friends around me getting attached. Super happy for them. Probably happier for them than I ever would for myself! I’ve no idea why either. No thoughts of jealousy, no spite. Just pure happiness for them. So weird right? Happy that they’ve found the true meaning in V day, when all V day means to me is a day to celebrate friendship. I don’t mind such a meaning either. It’s the day when most of my friends can get cookies from me! How awesome is that! =D (show off my baking skills) Hee hee.
My friend was saying that he’s going to expire in a few months time. Which made me think, I’m going to too in a year. Gosh. How time flies. And then we came to the conclusion that its time we start promoting ourselves. ‘Can cook, can clean, can wash, graduate, kind, caring and devoted. Only those who can tolerate lameness may apply.’ HAHA.
Please, I’m only 22!
Don't try to understand everything. Because sometimes it is not meant to be understood, but
to be accepted
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All of a sudden, I’m scared. Really scared. Seeing my friends looking for jobs here and there, career fairs and all, I wonder how it would be like for me next year. Afterall, I’m pretty on my own next year. No more P&G, no more people KJ-ing me in lecture to copy notes, no more people waiting for me to go lecture together, no sports club (I shouldn’t and cannot commit anymore, which is really quite sad) and most of all, no more crazy people to hang out with. There probably are some out there, but you know, you get used to the few you hang out with and it’s the letting go part that is so hard and tiring that you don’t feel like hunting the other crazy people out anymore since you know that in the end, everything’s going to come back to the same.
I’m trying hard not to imagine how it would be like to attend career fairs alone. Although I’m pretty fine talking to strangers and in fact I’m more comfortable talking to outsiders without people who I know around me (I’ve always had the feeling that I’ll be judged by them. I perform better when I’m totally with strangers in a formal setting. I think it’s just me la.), but everyone wearing formal wear together feels more fun and not as out of place. And commencement. Gosh, a sudden realization that I’m not going to commencement with the people I’ve seen since year 1 in my own course. A bunch of people that I may never have spoken to.
Will honours be worth it? My second upper is still so near yet so far. I supposed there’s no turning back now, 60% of me don’t want to either. I’ve just gotta make it worth it on my own. Stop thinking about next year for now Val, go mug. For a better future and an awesome job in 3M.
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Realised my pictures are getting more and more no link with the content in the entries. Just like this pic alot. =DA sudden realization. Suddenly, I feel like I’ve gained alot of elder brothers. Not blood brothers, but more like the feeling I get from the guys in club. A very heart-warming feeling. I don’t have any siblings, but I do know how it is to feel safe and i-don’t-know-how-to-describe-anymore surrounded by them. Although some I call them sisters, but like the rest they’ve got the kor kor feel to it. People who I look up to, who I know I can depend on when in doubt. Life’s just so nice, comfy and happy now. No more heartstrings attached, no more crack lines. Went shopping at some hilarious hardware store called Bess 8 with my neighbour. Really like kor kor bring mei mei go shopping liddat! And another one, who tells you about randomest things like he bought some colourful underwear! OMG. You know who you are. LOL! The offside is that the more 'sou' they are with me, the higher the possibility of me getting hit or whacked. Sadded. Even Lao Da has violent tendencies when dealing with me. *hide in corner and emo*
I’m happy the way things are right now (besides the 'abuse' part). Wouldn’t want it to change. Maybe for the better, but there’s still a chance it’ll be worse. I’d rather not. But sadly, the only constant in the world is change.
Waiting Outside the Lines - Greyson Chance
You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?
Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living behind
Stuck in my same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored
Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go
The world will force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What’s in you is out there
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it
I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
You’ll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
my own dusty road
Met YL today for lunch at Science. Haven’t seen her for awhile since she went to HK for exchange. Still the same old hyper her. Later, we went to shop around the Sci bazaar since we ate quite fast and still had time to walk around. Found a super cheap and good deal! They were selling Ipanema flip flops for $8 each! Got myself a teal-coloured one (suddenly my favourite colour seems to be teal!) and YL got the same as me! Proceeded to Co-op to spend my $10 voucher on pens, highlighters and cookies. Love the feel of getting stuff without paying. Legally of course.
With all that friend-time thingy still spiralling around in my head, I just feel like sitting in one corner to emo. Just that I can't find the time to, too stressed about my modules.
A friend is one of the nicest things you can have,
And one of the best things you can be
my own dusty road
Feels a little out of sorts these days. Perhaps its the meeting up with all the groups of people I haven’t met in a long time for my birthday. Time does come into play as we grow older. Topics change, places that we meet up at change, and most of all, people change. Some to the extent that I can’t relate to anymore. I remember the old them, and will continue to do so. But its a pity that time has come to erode away what was ours.
Some are still what they are before, the ones that I knew then and now. But then. It still isn’t like the past anymore. Things that we talk about, things that our life revolve around, things that we know are all different now. It’s like it’s there, but not quite. I see silence hanging around, I see question marks floating about. And I hate that. But that’s the result of time. No point trying to hope that it won’t happen again though. Coz that’s life. (OMG, why am I so philo all of a sudden?)
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Jan. 14. 2011.
Every year I wait for this day to come. Both with excitement and with dread. Dread that I’m going to get older by a year again. Excited that it’s going to my special day of the year. And when it comes and goes, by the end of the day I start to think ‘oh man, have to wait for another year’. I always think that my birthday comes too early in the year, that I would like a September birthday instead but sometimes I’m proud to be a January kid, being ahead of others. Oh wells, as the saying goes, the grass is always greener on the other side.
Had a blast yesterday! Though my day actually started at 6am in the morning. (I had that totally inaudible Quantum mech hell of a lecture) Had alot of people wishing me, handshakes and all. Had a cake in the evening in SC with almost everyone in the MC coming down. Which was very nice! Somehow after the holidays, we tend to see more of them coming into clubroom to slack mug and work more often already. Everyday’s like a mass gathering in MC room. Which brings me to wonder how we’re really going to mug there le. LOL. I was actually quite scared that they’ll start cake fight, but PHEW they didn’t! Hearts hearts people!
Got my new teal-coloured earphones from my beloved LW cell (the definition of LW arh... HAHAHAHA!!!) and Mr President and Ms Finance! Thankew!! Er, you guys read my blog rights? And special mention to ZY who edited and printed my exam slip! It’s super hilarious. Though it’s just one piece of green coloured paper, it totally brightened my day and many other days to come!! (Not that it’s not bright enough already) <3
And then we started mugging, or just attempting to mug coz JY was trying to get SW to play SSM. He still can’t find anyone to shoot!! Claiming that he’s so innocent he doesn’t wanna shoot anyone! COMICAL leh. Played shuttles (pls refer to FB video). Laughed until I wanted to cry! After watching three times, I still think what we did was funny! But i did achieve what I wanted to mug – solve the differential problem to prove the equation. LOL. And we crowned Weld-On the king of vulgarism officially. Straight after denying the title, he answered his incoming phone call with ‘KNN’! Beat that! (Wonders if his bye = CCB) LOL.
Met ZH, MJ, ZY for dinner with YX and JY. MJ gave me and ZH a Famous Amos cookie-pop each and an awesome apple strudel! I love anything with apple and cinnamon! THANKEW! =D ZH looked super spastic and helpless holding the cookie-pop in his hand, with JY hyperventilating with laughter as usual. Crystal Jade XLB steamboat buffet was awesome. 8 longs of XLB plus a 2 heaps of meat (I’m going halal for the next two months now, pls remind me if I forget kays?) And of coz not to mention alot alot alot of mushrooms. I bet I’m slowly turning into a fungi now.
Oh I forgot to mention the badminton session we had in the morning. I was supposed to avoid playing badminton cause I don’t have the time in between lessons to play and bathe. But in the end, i succumbed to temptation. Had to rush to tutorial without bathing, plus it was pouring. Brrrr... Finally got to play with YR. He super long la, with a ‘wing-span’ of like ¾ of the court already. Got to play with a shuttle with the brand INDOCOCK! Later on, SW was trying to hit the REAL INDOCOCK. Watch out Arisga!!! LOL!!!!
And so that summarised my awesome birthday. Funny is that, this year, it doesn’t seem to occur to me that I’m 22 le! 21 seems old, but 22 seems fine leh. Wassup with that! Oh wells. Just livin’ it , and lovin’ it.
P.S.
I didn’t wish for the same thing as I did last year. Let’s see.
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Someone asked me if my blog is an emo one the other day. Yup, it is and it’s supposed to be since it was created mainly for that purpose. Why? Reason is just very simple. I can’t be so happy outside all the time if I don’t have an avenue to let out steam. I prefer to write away all my emo thoughts and complaints, to be smile and laugh and enjoy the times that I have with my friends. If not I’ll probably be mentally unstable! HAHA. Life’s short. Most of the time, what I write will be the past. And what is the bad past is to be forgotten.
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My super tiring weekend started yesterday. It’s already the last weekend of the Sem 1 holidays. I’m not very sure if I am sad that it’s ending or happy that school is starting. This emotional struggle on the end of holidays have never changed since I first started school in primary 1.
Met YX, Kyn and JS for dinner yesterday night. Astons again. And we kena pangsehed by 3 people and almost one more. SW came over very very late since he was at SMU playing Heart attack with his ‘old’ canoe peeps. Did the social experiment at Starbucks Raffles City, but wasn’t very successful since there weren’t ALOT of people when we were there (It was like 11pm already so half the population were on their way home already, the other half are probably clubbing away the Saturday night). Came to the conclusion that people usually rate others of their own gender lower than those of opposite genders. Probably when we’re rating our own species, we put ourselves in as part of the standard I guess.
I realised my life is now flooded with SC peeps. Almost meeting them every other day right now. Going to meet them for the next two days as well. And its not just about meeting them in clubroom when mugging or just passing by. Have been going out with them for like don’t know how many times during the holidays already. What YX said last night was something I share sentiments about. She said ‘Sports club is just like family.’ Yeah, it’s damn heartwarming. To know that you have somewhere in the cold vast university that you belong to, to have people who are willing to accept you for what you are. Suddenly I realised it’s the place and people whom I feel the most at ease with. I can be who I want and who I am. The thought that it will end sooner or later scares me. I wonder after this sem, what is in store for me. Hons year, plus very few of my closer chem friends are staying on (almost none). I don’t like happy endings, ‘cause I don’t want this happy to end. I’ve never been happier in my whole uni life.
On another thought, it’s amazing how one fails to notice other things and people when your whole wide perspective only zooms in on one single person all the time. I realised for the past one year how many people and things I’ve missed and left unnoticed. All of a sudden so many new things appear, and you discover so many great and awesome people that have been there around you but were deemed insignificant then. How dumb it was. I like the way it is now. Bright and clear.
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Damn tired. I think it’s because of yesterday’s kayaking. My body’s totally lag in responding to tiredness. And my aches start like only now. >.<>
Yesterday’s kayaking was AWESOME. I realized I’ve got alot of AWESOME moments this holiday and sem. 14 of us – Chin, Sista, JY, SW, KY, XJ, XJ, Eil, Jon, Wel, WJ, KS, JS, Ger. Don’t have to elaborate much since JY’s written most of it on her blog. Can just refer to hers when I want the AWESOME memories to flood back.=P But here’s some of the things from my perspective.
Partnered WJ aka handsome partner! LOL. We didn’t want to capsize initially. Kena surrounded by three kayaks!! Chin was adamant to capsize us at all cost. He almost capsized himself in the process luh. KY came over to ‘help’ push our kayak up and down and up and down we went! Going into the water was nice! It was warm and and and nice! HAHA. The getting back up part was much easier than what we did in m’sia. There was still the shouts of ‘PUSH PUSH!!!’ but wasn’t that tiring la. Plus Chin was holding my kayak quite still (Hearts hearts!) and KY+XJ was lopanging me around to the kayak (heart hearts too!)
The one and only and biggest regret of this entire outing was that WE COULDN’T TAKE PHOTOS WHEN ON THE WATER!!! AND WE DIDN’T TAKE A GROUP SHOT TOO! Hopefully someone will get a waterproofed cam soon coz I forsee we’ll have more of these outings soon. And now, yesterday will only stay as a memory left uncaptured on film or digital. May we be able to remember this day!!!
my own dusty road
my own dusty road
