Courage. I need courage to face everything that comes my way everyday. Courage to step out of the house in specs. You may be wondering why I even need that. You wonder, because you are not me. You don’t have to wear those horrible thingies and fight your own struggle everytime someone mentions about them. You don’t look the way I do. And you don’t feel the way I do. That’s why I will never blame you for saying the things you said.

Today is antisocial day. They all tell me Val and Antisocial don’t go together. That’s only on the surface. I can feel antisocial the whole day and act social. Of course most of the time I’m not acting. But the point is, I do have antisocial days. And antisocial days = spec days. How retarded. Hiding behind those lenses isn’t the way to go, isn’t my ideal way to face the world.

I’m so sorry being like that for the past few days. January just isn’t my month. Although its my birthday month. Hope my ordeal will be over soon. Back to lighter stuff, my Ocomm is coming up really soon. First Ocomm meeting next sat. Super excited. Hopefully this time round, we’ll have a good deal of time and bonding and seriously, I hope I can get a little extra out of it! *winks* LOL. Ok, I shouldn’t be thinking about these now. Concentrate, mug. That’s what I need to be doing now. Yes, I need to psycho myself. Off to lecture now!

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Today’s the last day that I’m NOT legally responsible for my own actions.

Time flies so damn fast. 20 years of my life flew pass just like that. And to think that i thought that i would only live to 18 years of age (I was an extremely pessimistic kid). I guess i ought to do some reflection here before i hit the big 21 (BAN LUCK ah!) Looking back, life’s been too good to me. Of course I STILL have a non-existent love life but I do have much more love coming from the other side – my dearest friends out there. And what can i say? I do have ALOT of great friends out there. Yes, i agree that they may not always be there throughout my entire life. But as long as they came in once before, they did make a mark on me, changed me for the better. No matter how much you have been in my life or how well we know each other, a big thank you to all of you who have made my life worth living for. Friends make up a great part of my life, actually MOST of it (i don’t have siblings you know). You know who you are. My three greatest angels on earth whom i doubt i can ever part from, my six best fairies (Zhu prefers being called seven dwarfs, and i wonder why) who fill my life with colours, my awesome juniors and badminton mates who gave me a reason to survive through my JC years, my great uni friends who entertained me through the boring-est of the boring labs and lectures and of course my wonderful Sports club that helped me get a life which uni took away in my first year.

Ok actually i guess my reflection on my past years would be more or less thanking the people that filled my life, coz there really isn’t anything else. Of course, there’s my parents la, but i shy to put here la. Will have goosebumps one luh. =P There isn’t any guy in particular that i can talk about here too. Refer to above mention about non-existent love life. Neh mind. He shall come one day. Lol.

Oh and since I’m going to ‘ban luck’ tomorrow, i shall write my wishes for the year ahead!

1. I wish that all the people around me will have their CAP pulled up! Up up and away!

2. I wish that we’ll all have good health and of course wealth in the year ahead!

3. I wish that NUSSSC Special Projects will be awesomely successful especially RunNUS! ( you can’t blame me for my biasness. Lol)

4. I wish that ‘ you qing ren zhong chen juan shu’ and for all to find their other one and live happily ever after. ( that includes me too wor! )

I think that summarises everything that i would like to wish for this year, besides the most important of all – the one last secret wish. Sssh can’t tell ya! LOL. If not it won’t come through le. Haha. Ok so that it then. Last two hours to go. I think i’m sleepy already! How! Haha.

Ban Luck liao! =P

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

My first post of the new year 2010. Haven been posting anything up here since a long time ago. Life’s been too good to me these days. Yes there has been setbacks and stuff but wells, i still got the hell out of life.

Spent my last few hours of 2009 with the peeps from Sports Club. Best countdown ever. Laughed like there was no tomorrow. Large bunch of us in clubroom before 2am (Note : Sober people), small bunch of us left in clubroom after 2am (Note : Half were NOT sober).Found Sports club very own ‘Jay Chou’ ( more like jay chou4) aka WL. Hear him sing = laugh until cry. K-ed emo songs, high songs. Can you imagine, KBOX in NUS? Best manx!

Mahjonged until my hands turned to jelly. Got scolded for having ‘Winds’ as the eye. Crowned ‘Princess of the Wind’ because i just kept throwing ‘North, South, East and West Winds’ to poor Kyn. Ate every tile that WL threw. BH just kept winning. And i dun wanna talk about that TZH giving me endless comments that i should keep weird combinations so that the rest can’t win. I rather him running after KY or YR or ZJ with the Vodka than standing behind me to make me lose. LOL.

Mopped the floor of Sports Club room early at 7am on New Year’s Day. Guess i can never leave the mop far away. LOL. Good to have people staying near you anyways. Cabbed home w them and concussed. =D

What a great start to the New Year. Rock on manx. And to everyone out there, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road