You hit a raw nerve yesterday. No one saw my face change. No one noticed. I just let it pass. Just let it jab straight through. It hurt, alot. I can tolerate the hell lot of nonsense that comes out of your mouth but not that. I do have a limit. I do have a breaking point. Do not, i repeat, do not exceed that limit. I won’t go easy on you then.

I realised there are so many things that I’m kept in the dark about. I don’t give a damn about the stuff outside and whatsoever going around in the MC but as long as it concerns my comm., i do believe i have the right to know. Keeping me in the dark isn’t going to work much. I can’t just sit by the side and watch you guys get into some sort of face off and not knowing a shit about anything. If we’re not going to clear the air, i see no smooth sailing route to planning and management. Why is it that right from the start, i see hints of obstacles and interpersonal problems cropping up already? Isn’t it a little too early? And i do appreciate information about your next moves. Come on, let’s be transparent here ok? I should know, i ought to know and i will know. Damn it. And thanks YL for hearing me out. Very much appreciated.

Damn the eye infection. Screw it manx. Of all times, it must happen during the best part of the holidays? Had to clear all appointments this week which made me feel so damn bad. I’M SO SORRY GUYS! Argh. Shit one luh. And i wanna apologise esp to JY, coz its not the first time i’ve gotta pangseh her liao. Tea-drinking, Zouk.. Argh. I’m such a bad person. Gosh. And also to dear Ahmad, whom i subjected to countless changes of meeting date. Maybe i should just pull out my eyeball and throw it away. LOL. But i guess its a blessing not to have it during my exams or during the crucial times of my event. Pray that its ok by this weekend. Argh i’m just going crazy!!!!!!!!