I realised my blog is filled with emo stuff. Actually I realized it long ago but oh wells. My my, how can you guys still continue reading manx? Won’t the emo-ness spread? Haha. School’s been ok lately, with mostly my JC peeps being around me and stuff. Guess things won’t be going that nicely once tutorial starts which is next week. Chinese New Year’s next Monday and I seriously don’t understand what’s all the fuss about it. To me, Chinese New Year is just all about washing the entire house until your veins pop out and become ultra visible to the world outside (which mine already has) and being paid angbaos for the cleanliness you have achieved and for answering lame boring and irritating questions about when you’re going to find the other half and discussion and criticism why I haven’t found one. And also, I hate it when people asks something which they are not really interested about just to strike up a conversation with you. To me, even for just a plain simple hi-bye conversation, put a little more effort in it, a little more feel in it would do one good. Ok, perhaps I do that too much and end up making myself miserable only. Oh wells. Life suck. I’ve a feeling that I blogged about this before but never mind. Just to reiterate. =P

Some regrets about not joining any CCA or whatsoever in this first year. But weighing the pros and cons, I seriously don’t think a dumb lazy person like me can handle both CCA and not screw up my CAP at the same time. I do long to be back where I was once before, as part of an EXCO, in-charge of some event and having stuff to do rather spend my time thinking about whether I should go running just to kill time. But it hits me over and over again that university fees aren’t just a small minute part of income. It is definitely something that is unachievable for many outside there and I obviously don’t wish to screw things up. and weird thing is that I don’t like to be an OGL. I think its dumb,. Not that my OGLS are bad or anything la. I prefer behind the scenes action. Deadlines for registration are up anyways. So why bother? Might as well aim for something else. =)

2009 : 10km
2010 : 24km
2011 : 42km
2012 : 84km??!!!!
Oh man. Someone please wake me up. Adidas Sundown. Yes or No?

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Last day of my life as a teenager. Its sucked. Thought that perhaps I ought to pen down some thoughts, besides, it was such an eventful day. so eventful that I would just like to put this day behind me, and hopeful walk into a brighter future. But wells, life seems bleak now. Going nowhere, doing nothing about it as well. Why don’t I take the initiative? I don’t have the ability to, I dun have anyone to drag me into, to pull me along into a bit more life. All I got I myself. A self-doubting self. Oh wells. Wasted away my life, the past exact 19 years. Going down the path that people took. Never stopping to ask what am I doing this for. And now I find myself stuck in uni, and the only thing and only way to get out is to get good grades. What a lousy resolution.

Today’s stuff I guess can be summarized as follows, though some parts aren’t correct. But most were.

-The Show. Lenka-
I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Oh oh
Just enjoy the show
Oh oh

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Dum de dum
Dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

Dum de dum
Dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show


But apart from the downside and shit happenings, there’s always people who would make my day and never failing to make me smile especially today. Thanks to Yip LaiMeng, Lau Guo Hao and Lau Honghu. I love you guys. And of course not forgetting my sec sch sisters, Sun Xiying, Tan Xingying and Selina Ong for being there all the time for the past seven years. My JC buddies, Tan Yiwen, Eunice Wong, Chen Zhiting, Zhu Sijing, Ling Peijia, Chua Yien for being so on about outings!!! The people of actscalibre camp 08 and those that I met there. And the many many more that I have not mentioned

But still, these days aren’t easy anymore.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

One more week. I’m like half looking forward to next week but half totally not. There is definitely something next week worth waiting for, worth looking forward for, but the speeded up arrival of next wee will also mean that I’m starting the new semester again. Mugging is the actually the least of my concerns. The other concerns, well, I don’t think it would be beneficial to pen down here since no one else besides myself can help me.

Spent this week baking stuff. Lots of stuff for Lunar New Year. Just wonder what’s the fuss about Chinese new year. Its just any other regular day. the only difference is you get to meet irritating relatives and get paid (in ang paos) for answering their persistent questions about when I’ll find my other half. Oh and they all think I have one but is keeping from them. Ah, they so don’t understand me. Haha. Of course, since we only meet on festive days like Christmas, new year and my ah ma’s birthday.

Kept turning people down for Kbox. Felt damn bad for it. But really guys, my ma doesn’t give me much space on weekdays this week and partly coz I’ve run out of ka-ching for the hols. One reason why I look forward to school – pay day.

Going to cut my hair later with my ma since she also wants to cut for the new year. (the fuss about new year again) Wonders if I should chop my hair as always. Maybe I should leave a strand of super long one. Hah. Random thought.

Realized my timetable is like super packed coz of the a lot a lot a lot of lab sessions a chem major has to take and endure. Gosh, up to 10 hours a week. Gonna get more in year 2. ah wells, blessing in disguise. At least I don’t need to give presentations every other week and wear office wear plus heels. Hah. I’ve got an alternate week free day if my ideal timetable and tutorial slots materialize though. I seriously don’t have an idea who I’ll be taking my tutorials with. Feels so alone suddenly. Contrasting with the JC days that we would all attend lessons together, pon lectures together and eat lunch together as one whole big group. Like there’s few cliques made up of seven people la. Supposed to plan tutorials with law but given the fact that we are both kiasu people, we’ve already planned out own. Haha. and it turns out that none but the LSM1401 lab is on the same slot. Haiz. Uni sucks la. Period.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

1 January 2009. Welcome to the new shitty year.





Last day of 2008 spent with the ultimate gathering of insane people. Me + fellow MH songminghan + LTB laimengthebimbo (taken from Joson’s mouth) + ACJC Act Cute Joson Chua (I’m stuck with the name) + Tan Ah Wen. Normal? No. Insane? Definitely.

Went to meet the gang at 1plus Chinatown station for KBOX at this Ten Dollar Karaoke place. Was late. Haha. Being late for the last time in 2008.

OMG. I seriously feel like copying and pasting whatever Yip Lai Meng LTB had blogged. Yesterday was such an eventful day luh.

Edited from Lai Meng’s Blog….

The room was at the back where the kitchen was!!! The room was damn small and squeezy. It looks like some room that the staff there use to sing or something. Looks freaky okay.

Okay. So we spent 5 hours there singing. Got super high and all.

重色轻友 left early to meet obviously you know who.

Then the rest of us went to find a toilet at the control station. And we went back to the same place to have dinner! =DD

Joson left to find his seniors and the remaining 3 of us walked to Central at Clarke Quay from Chinatown.

We went shopping and Joson came back to join us at 9 plus. Walked around, took photos and we went to find a toilet. We failed to find one that is not having long queues so we gave up finding.

Then we went to the Singapore Bridge to sit down. Joson is a liar! He told me that bridge is called the Singapore Bridge! =.= And I told my friend that I was at the Singapore Bridge. The truth is we were at the Fullerton-something bridge. Anyway, we sat there and waited for the countdown. But we failed because before we even realised, there were fireworks and it was already 2009!

So we started running to the place where we can see the fireworks. And yea, we stood there for a few minutes looking at the fireworks. We didn't even wished one another Happy New Year. haha.

After fireworks, we wanted to go over to Marina but we couldn't because there were many many people. So we stood at some random spot until a police officer came to chase us off. We went to another random location and sat down until the whole place cleared. And we walked over to Marina Square Macs.

We were there till 5 plus am. And LTB was super high and she didn't even feel like sleeping. But the rest were all dozing off! =(

So LTB began to entertain us. (yeah, right) haha. yeah. LTB thinks she talked more than 500 sentences last night alone. LTB was feeling really awake!

LTB got cheated by Joson on the first day of 2009. He told Ah Mui (which is me) and LTB that he wear contacts. And even though he already said that he don't, LTB couldn't register it in my head and LTB kept thinking he wears contacts. =.= Long story.

End of edited version of Lai Meng’s blog.

I shouldn’t start the year being so bad to Laimeng by calling her LTB. Seems that calling her Limbo would be a better choice. After all, she’s Laimeng the bIMBO, and Limbo Rocks!!! =P

Happy New Year Everyone!!! I’m going to meet laimeng at J8 now, like 12 hours after we have just parted, ON THE SAME DAY!!! haha.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road