Jielun’s album’s releasing soon. I realised, every year when he releases his album it seems that half the world’s population’s celebrating with him. They should like declare holiday for the day he released his new album. That’ll be great manx. I’m quite astounded by his popularity,even my friends who has no idea whats happening in the Chinese music arena is aware that jielun’s album’s out soon. =P

Slacked the entire of today. I went to have lunch with June, Wenhao and Cindy. I do miss having Exco meetings with them. Oh man, that’s like so damn long ago. We’re like all over the place – June’s in SMU, Cindy’s in NTU, I’m in NUS and Wenhao’s in OCS. Haha. Its been like I guess almost half a year that we’ve not seen each other. Makes you feel damn bloody old.

Its like half your life is gone. I wonder where will I go when I die. Really. I don’t think I’ll be able to leave this world without missing it, I can’t imagine not belonging to this earth anymore. Okays, I know that’s like many years ahead and I shouldn’t like worry about that now. But who knows? Accident? Sudden cardiac arrest? (like the heart is the police arresting the person, ok shit, I’m talking nuts) seriously no one will know.
Aye, such a pessimistic topic.

Life’s really easier without thinking of stuff =). Expectations and hope breaks life apart.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

I realised it has been so damn long since I last blogged. Too much slacking time have been wasted mugging. Sounds ironic eh? But perhaps I haven’t had my ‘trusty’ laptop with me the past two weeks, I haven been really slacking and roaming around in the virtual world. Oh how addictive is the virtual world. And yes. I lost contact with more than half of the world during that agonizing period of time.

Oh, before I forget, I SERIOUSLY WANT TO GO SENTOSA. THE SUN, SAND AND SEA! OMG. CAN YOU IMAGINE THE AGONISING PAIN OF NOT BEING ABLE TO STAND ON THE VAST WHITE BEACH WHEN THE SUN IS SO PERFECT. I CAN EVEN FEEL THE WAVES ALREADY!

Enough of my sudden outburst of emotions. On to my past few weeks. This week was terrible, horrible, incorrigible. SSA test + MS excel lab report + impending SSA presentation and discussion + 7 SSA readings = STRESS. Gosh nothing is more stressful than SSA2204 nation building. What crap nation building? It’s more of singapore’s recent history. I bet if they named the module : singapore’s history, there’ll be zero attendance. I’m so not an Arts student. Science heaven, Arts hell. Ok, maybe besides literature and geography. And wells, as expected, I’m going to fail the SSA test. I sit in for the first half an hour not knowing what the hell I’m supposed to write about. I’m as screwed as can be.

Lab report was actually, well, better than SSA obviously. But it still took a heck of a long time. Rather fun though, sharing the pains of having to do such a long and un-understandable lab report with your fellow chemists. Everywhere, the year 1s went ‘have you done your lab report?’ or ‘wah you know how to do wor?’ .

And then the emo part. Seems that blogs are really for emo stuffs.
Nah, I cant say it here I guess. Hmmm… there’re just sooo many things that I cant say here, I really wonder why is it that I need a blog for. I’m afraid that I would hurt someone, offend someone (which I always do if I do write), create more trouble for others, letting people know what actually goes through my head, or even hurt myself (which happens the most often, I’m like always having to get used to it). I can only say that, from Friday, life has just a tiny little hint that it’s going to be better. Before that, it was like a internal hell of mental struggle. A struggle to belong somewhere, and then a battle with myself to not think too much. >.<

Labels: Uni life and beyond

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

4th week. Tests draw close. Can you imagine? its already been four weeks! and i'm still here slacking my butt away. of course, that doesn't apply to if you're in JC or secondary. in uni, slacking away in the 4th week spells doom for the sem. or at least that's the feeling i get from attending the disastrous SSA2204 tutorial. OMG, the people in my group? Year fours. the difference in intellectual is astounding. we were supposed to discuss a question but before i could contribute anything or even answer a yes, they're shooting their mouths off in hot debate. tell me, how am i supposed to catch up with these people. moreover they're from arts fac, so obviously they have more lung or should i say mouth power compared to scientists like me! oh man. i'm seriously as screwed as it can be.

i'm trying to flush out all my thoughts in this blog entry but can't really do that coz GUESS WHAT? I'M USING BISHAN LIBRARY'S PUBLIC COMPUTER. HOW SAD IS THAT. AND THE WORSE THING IS WHEN I AM FINALLY ABLE TO GET ONLINE, NO ONE IS ONLINE!!! DAMN MANX. I'M LIEK SO ALONE IN THE BIG LIBRARY CAN. SO I DECIDED TO LIKE TALK TO MY COMPUTER INSTEAD. OH NO, IT ISN'T EVEN MY COMPUTER. SOMEONE SHOULD HAVE WARNED ME AGAINST BUYING ACER LAPTOPS IN THE FIRST PLACE. ITS BEEN TO THE SVC CENTRE FOR MORE THAN 2 TIMES ALREADY. JUST GIMME A NEW ONE WILL YA? CRAPS.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road