Sometimes i wonder what makes people work so hard for. Maybe someone, maybe something. I guess that 'thingy' that i want to work for isn't that strong after all. Sometimes exhaustion takes over, sometimes its just the devil in me speaking a wee bit too loudly.

Sorry folks, i don't know what has gotten into me today. The enthalpy change of 'highness' seems pretty negative today. its been long since i've got this feeling. i guess i'm just a little pissed.Sometimes being overly sticky to a person pisses one off momentarily. gosh, i think i've had that experience a trillion times already. why doesn't some understand? ok, i don't think i'm that worthy being stuck on to. Hmmm, don't tell me i've got such attractive force? Muahaha.. ok, seems that i've got the enthalpy change back to a positive high. Since the enthalpy change of 'highness' is positive and the bond energy of friends is highly positive too, using hess' law, we can conclude that tomorrow would be a better day with a highly positive value for the enthalpy change of 'happiness'. Muahaha. ok, i'm crapping again.

promos are coming. and i haven finished revising my syllabus yet. not even half way through. its like only a week to the exams and i haven done my econs yet. i'm like dead meat already. maths is through halfway but i guess i can't really excel yet even if i did the ten year series. the school is bound to set some super hard questions. what to do? NJC mah. sometimes i doubt the choice of going to this school. i don't regret it, but just wonder what if i hadn't come here and ended up in AJC. perhaps life would be better. perhaps.

i always know what the ending between me and someone will be like. a fullstop. before anything ever happens. people tell me its ok, but is it? its becoming a habit to be able to like and then drift away again. is accepting that nothing interesting will ever happen to me good? or just a screen to cover the entrance to a better and new entrance into my life?

i can't find a foothold anymore. just in a dimension whether only i and my problems unknown to the world exist. just me and my pathetic life.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road