I screwed everything up... Guess i've learnt my lesson on slacking too much.. I suck! How many times must i fail in order to understand the importance of studying? I hate myself. Will NJ kick me out coz of totally screwed Common tests? My sub teachers are just going to wonder what have they done in their previous lives to deserve such a dumb student. Maybe i should have gone to Poly instead. I'm just going to face the cruel reality when i recieve my results. its the first ever time i've done like soooo bad... I totally suck....

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Darn... mugging period is on... someone invite me to the mugging world will ya? I've been slacking away since the end of the Aviva opens and haven started studying yet at all.. Tell me how do u guys motivate yourselves to study? since the day after the o'levels, i've lost the driving force... i've no aim, nothing and no one to work and acheive for. i've kinda lost my direction in life. I don't feel the ' come on, let's mug together' feel anymore like i once did when i was mugging in anderson sec for the o's. In NJ, there's only the 'i'm not gonna help you since i wanna beat you and please dun mug with me' kind of thing. No one there to spur me on. perhaps this is the attitude i have to live with for this year and the next. maybe it's better this way. To work for yourself and not others. Maybe.

* love my new haircut! Haha.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Aviva Open is on!
Actually it started on 5th june which was this monday la. I went to watch the prelimary rounds today. Super duper good can. I got a feeling that some matches today would be better than the matches in the finals. There was this match between i think netherlands perhaps and another country(can't remember which one) that was so tense and their score was going:'21-20...21-21...22-21...22-22...23-22...and so on. The rally was long and both were good la. From my point of view, India, Denmark and China are the best ones i've seen today. There's like so many malaysian and china players that at every moment, there's a player from either of the countries playing on one of the five courts at the indoor stadium today. An eye opener indeed, since i've never watched aviva open at the stadium before.
Intend to go watch the finals of aviva open this sunday. Anyone wants to go?

Just came back from badminton camp on monday. The camp lasted three days, saturday, sunday and monday. First camp i had with my CCA. The camp was pretty fun and best on the first day. We had ice breaker games (i don't see the point in calling it ice breaker since we already know each other pretty well.), water games and haunted trail at night. The ice breaker games were not bad... There was pretty much running about in the hall. Haha. Oh yah, my group's called WEEDEE and there's me+maye+sherrie+wen yun+darius+erusha and our EXCO leader yue yun. The water games was fun! Especially at the end when everyone started pouring water on each other. Its usually this part when everyone's having the most fun... We were all soaking wet EXCEPT Bing(the ultimate NOOB) and Lester(dun touch my hair if not...). Why ain't they wet? Hmmph! The haunted trail was ok. Wasn't very scary but i was shocked by the jellyfish-lookalike structures at the top floor at the IP block. Luckily we went in pairs, if not i would freak out at that one. But mainly i was worried about the steps in the dark. I hate it when i'm unsure about my footing. I've got a phobia perhaps. then comes the stupid hike back to Jing Tat's house. My god la... It was 55 minutes long! With our super heavy bags, it's long and super tiring. You should walk there to see for ur self. Jing Tat's house is like so deep inside. What the hell lo. We reached there and almost collapsed immediately. Bing started his NOOB talk. He called every other ppl who were playing bridge NOOBs when he's the biggest NOOB. From then on, the word 'NOOB' stayed on and everyone included NOOB in their conversation all the time, even today at the AVIVA OPEN.
The next day wasn't as fun but still enjoyable. We were split up into our groups and went for Amazing race. The first stop's clue was super stupid. The clue was a pic of apple tarts and a soccer star Park-something-something one. Who would think that it meant Jing Tat's park? Jing tat was there hidding 20 shuttlecocks for us to find. We found all but one. And you know where the last one was supposed to be? Buried in the fallen leaves! Who can find it la! Then at another stop,Adam food centre, we had to solve a crossword puzzle. there was this one which said ' KNNBCCB UOY'... guess it! answer:HOKKIEN MEE! find out why yourself... if not you can ask me... At giant, we were made to search for a list of items. at coronation plaza we had to make people say some phrases without letting them know that we are playing a game. at the last part, our group met doris's group on the bus. to get in fornt of them we had to either walk the lonkang way or run the long route back. so we decided to be righteous and take the long road. we ran like crazy can. like the home run like that. my lungs and heart was bursting at that moment la.
The BBQ was nice. felt a bit bad leaving all the work to some of the guys, jing tat's maids and his parents. It's the first time i wasn't the one barbequing la. usually i would be there at least some times cooking the food.
JING TAT'S HOUSE GOT SWING LOH! so shuang hor? i love swings la..
dun you find that this entry is like so very long? i'm going to GG le la.. haha...
so NOOBs, when want go AVIVA OPEN, msg me,k? haha.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road

Holidays are supposedly here. But why is it that i don't feel the spirit of the holiday around me? Everyone is buzzing around, for trainings, project work and extra lessons with the teachers. The college feels more alive when the hols are here than when there was school. I have either SPA or trainings every single day in school. Call this a holiday?

Last saturday was fun, but not as fun as the previous outing we had, when we were leaving IJC. As usual we met at Parkway Parade before going to East Coast. The 2nd intakers were there too and i supposed me and Peishan were perhaps intruding into their class outing. But nonetheless, we mixed well. They were a pretty quiet and un-high bunch and at first i didn't know how to react. Its wasn't their problem though. But as the day went past, the hours dragged longer and longer. There wasn'tpirit! The feeling we once had wasn't there anymore. Things had definitely changed though i wished with all my might that they won't. Perhaps nothing stays forever. I guess no one was totally high on that day. No one was totally crazy that day. Even those that were supposedly the 'highest' weren't as high as before. When i wasn't around, what have they done to themselves? Its super saddening to see yet another class deteoriate like that, when my current class doesn't seem any better. Internal conflict and isolation is the worst to happen within a class or a group. I miss those days when we all had so much class spirit that the entire school was also enveloped in it. I miss those days when people would say:' Orh... that super enthu class ah?' when you mention your class. I don't think there would ever be anymore of these comments though i hope that one day people would comment that:' Yah, i heard that NJ badminton super united one.' I really want that day to happen. Hoping that someday someone mentions either the team or my class, i would go:' Yeah man we rock!' Hope one day we'll enjoy so much that we'll just roll on the ground laughing like the times before.

I guess i'm pretty mad now. I've started doing footwork at home! What the hell. Its like it has become my life. How weird. Someone please send me to IMH! ahahahaha.

♥ Walking on,
my own dusty road